Hug me.!

I'm afraid. I can't say this too many times but now I am. I'm just scared of meeting you. Standin' there face to face. No more hiding. I know, we have to speak. But I just don't know what's gonna be. How am I gonna feel? Once I thought I'm over you. That I don't love you that way anymore. Cuz I know I shouldn't. But than we met. And it spoiled everything I had built up in the former two months.
Now.. I think I am finially really, totally, fully over. But I'm not sure. I'm afraid when we're gonna meet it will spoil everything again. And I have to start it over again. This just cannot happen. Can't!
And it won't. I promised it myself. And I'll keep this promise!

 It's funny. Writin this all down helped me a lot. I knew, I just have to write it down now :))

I wrote all my fears out of myself.. (:

16., March, I am ready!

Andd, you know. I still like you anyway :)